The Journey of Life

It’s funny how the road of life can take you in so many different directions. Sometimes there are wrong turns, roads you didn’t even know existed, flat tires, lots of bumps in the road, and major detours. You can get frustrated about all the detours this road has, or you can do your best and end up exactly where you needed to be, despite the frustration of things not going as planned. Sometimes the road that you didn’t plan on driving down can give you some of the best learning experiences. It’s all an important part of the journey of life.

A Little Lesson on Forgiveness

A little lesson for us all about forgiveness:

Sometimes the problem isn't that someone hasn't forgiven you.  The issue may be that they aren't able to handle any more pain at your hand and are protecting themselves.  It isn't always about you.

My Story

My Story

I don't feel ready to die. There are so many things I haven't had the chance to experience yet. To leave now would make me feel like I had too much unfinished business to let go and move on. As if it wasn't enough to not have a normal childhood, imagine knowing that you won't get to grow old, have children, or see the world. I was lucky to meet my husband, my forever love, at a young age. I'm happy to have experienced love in my life before it comes to an end. I know I'll be with him forever, but the idea of parting for even a brief time pains me terribly.

Some days death seems close, like an old familiar friend coming to visit. The quiet comes on easily, trying to take me away to the world beyond. I don't know when the end will come. It could come tonight, tomorrow, or years from now. Sometimes I delude myself and try to put on a hopeful attitude that I'll be cured and I'll be able to grow old here.

This is my place to leave pieces of my heart, and my story of hope, pain, sadness, and love. This is me.

Broken Memories (Song Lyrics/Poem)

Broken Memories

I'm stronger now inside and out

I'm trying to believe again in us

We're broken inside and out

These tears will wash away these broken memories

I may be angry but that doesn't mean I don't care anymore

But the sadness is at times to much to bear so I had to let you go

Through this pain and anger I've overcome my fear of you

I want to have you near but it’s just not time - it may never be again

I don't know how long I'll stand to bear all these bitter memories of you

I can forgive you, I know I must

But in you again I'll never trust

I'm stronger now inside and out

I'm trying to believe again in us

We're broken inside and out

These tears will wash away these broken memories

Forgiveness

Musings on Forgiveness

Forgiveness isn't something that is achieved by just making a bold "I forgive you, please forgive me" statement.  True forgiveness means letting go of the anger, resentment, or other negativity towards the person who offended us, whether or not they have changed or repented at all.  Forgiveness is an ongoing, ever evolving process.