Saturday, November 10, 2012

My Story


My Story

I don't feel ready to die. There are so many things I haven't had the chance to experience yet. To leave now would make me feel like I had too much unfinished business to let go and move on. As if it wasn't enough to not have a normal childhood, imagine knowing that you won't get to grow old, have children, or see the world. I was lucky to meet my husband, my forever love, at a young age. I'm happy to have experienced love in my life before it comes to an end. I know I'll be with him forever, but the idea of parting for even a brief time pains me terribly.

Some days death seems close, like an old familiar friend coming to visit. The quiet comes on easily, trying to take me away to the world beyond. I don't know when the end will come. It could come tonight, tomorrow, or years from now. Sometimes I delude myself and try to put on a hopeful attitude that I'll be cured and I'll be able to grow old here.


This is my place to leave pieces of my heart, and my story of hope, pain, sadness, and love. This is me.

Sunday, September 30, 2012

Broken Memories (Song Lyrics/Poem)


Broken Memories


I'm stronger now inside and out
I'm trying to believe again in us
We're broken inside and out
These tears will wash away these broken memories

I may be angry but that doesn't mean I don't care anymore
But the sadness is at times to much to bear so I had to let you go

Through this pain and anger I've overcome my fear of you
I want to have you near but it’s just not time - it may never be again

I don't know how long I'll stand to bear all these bitter memories of you
I can forgive you, I know I must
But in you again I'll never trust


I'm stronger now inside and out

I'm trying to believe again in us
We're broken inside and out
These tears will wash away these broken memories

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Forgiveness


Musings on Forgiveness

Forgiveness isn't something that is achieved by just making a bold "I forgive you, please forgive me" statement.  True forgiveness means letting go of the anger, resentment, or other negativity towards the person who offended us, whether or not they have changed or repented at all.  Forgiveness is an ongoing, ever evolving process.